[stanley kowalski voice] BELLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[hydesout]

you know what, much like the AUs I'm just going to put down a catchall post for anything we want to do with them

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[hydesout]

[And here she said she'd go first!!]

Well... [He dips his head, pressing his lips together. It's more than embarrassing, it's really terrible.] I broke another boy's nose, punched him right in his face because I thought he'd cheated at a game.

...As it turns out, he hadn't.

[alamob]

Oh, is that all?

[She echoes him deliberately, poking fun at his residual shame all these years later. Past is past. He'll get over the tragedy of punching an innocent during his boyhood.]

Chin up. Who's to say he hadn't earned it otherwise?

[hydesout]

I don't think there's any reason he should have earned such a thing - besides if he somehow had, it was for the wrong reason!

[It's a big deal to him okay? He was a tiny adult as a child, upright and hardworking, polite, listened to his parents and teachers.]

I had outbursts now and then. That's the worst instance I can recall, but there's also a period I don't remember, it might have been worse then?

[This is what he's reduced to, trying to find something bad he did.]

[alamob]

[Bella isn't half as worried for his childhood mental state as he apparently is. Unpack that shit, brah. Let it go.

Her head shakes at the dilemma he's made for himself, and she abandons the half-finished plate to take up both their glasses for a refill. He needs it.]

I wonder who you killed with your wee boy hands? I'm fetching us more brandy. How much?

[hydesout]

[As much as he seriously doubts he even could have killed anyone, it does bring up a point. What was it like before he was medicated to keep Hyde at bay? How would a child act in that situation? Luckily he's pulled away from his thoughts by the question.]

Oh, ah, alright, I'll take a glass. [What does that mean, like a shot size, as much as was poured before, a full glass, what.]

Really, I told you, I was very good.

[alamob]

[He's getting two fingers' worth, like her. This is good stuff and he had better appreciate the label.]

Yeah, you said.

[Even with her customary sardonic edge, the banter hasn't become malicious or mean-spirited. Robert Jekyll leaves himself wide open to be poked and prodded, that's all. It's a fun game.

Bella's saunter to their table is astonishingly feline. Even the way she pours his share has a coyness to it.]

I thought pa's friends were dull and dry for never including me in their business chats, so I planted manure in their coat pockets. Only thing I regret is blaming it on a cabbie. Lost him a job, although pa knew.

[hydesout]

Thanks. [He does appreciate it, even taking the time to twirl it about before sipping at it.]

You did what?

[His laugh rings through the empty hall as he pictures the men's faces on discovering her prank. Clearly she comes by her name honestly, because as disgusting as it is, that she'd do something like that is incredibly charming.]

How old were you?

[alamob]

[Late. Early. Whatever. Although the faint buzz of tiredness nags at her hindbrain, a meal, a drink, and reasonably good company help stay the need for rest. The Empire's no slouch in decor and atmosphere even with the lights dimmed.

But that might be because all of it belongs to Bella, who sinks with relish into the plush chair she owns.]

Old enough to know I deserved the spanking I got. I might've earned another since, but nobody's fool enough to have a go at my arse. [As though discussing weather changes, she sips the brandy.]

[hydesout]

[Hyde would have something sarcastic and lewd to say to that, and the thought occurs to Robert, but he doesn't let it get past that stage for even a moment.]

Ah. Well, I hope it was worthwhile even so. It sounds to be.

[How could it not be, really.]

I really admire that.

[alamob]

Mm.

[The food's gone lukewarm. Bella tucks in, hating waste. Times weren't always bountiful. The meat wasn't always this succulent, vegetables this fresh. The liquor coats her tongue and throat for one hell of an aftertaste.]

Really? It was all childhood silliness. The stakes are higher for us now.

[hydesout]

Of course, not only that, I mean now too.

[But he's so shy about saying that, his throat dries up and he has to struggle to swallow away the lump in it, avoiding her gaze, or giving his in return.]

[alamob]

[Bella's not nearly drunk enough to gloss over it, or mistake his withdrawal for anything else. Slowly, she places fork and knife on either side of the emptied plate.

If he dares look up, there she'll be. Her eyes could drown a man or pull him out of deep waters. Depends.]

And that sounds like more than a compliment. Am I wrong?

[What the hell kind of drumbeat is her heart playing at?]

[hydesout]

It's- [He chances a glance. But that was a mistake.]

I mean it as I said it, I admire you for it, it's a - an attractive quality.

[Could he possibly be more careful about what words he chooses? Probably, actually. If he was going to do as good a job of avoiding as he wants, he wouldn't have called it attractive.]

[alamob]

[The beginning of their reconciliation had come with unspoken rules. They never discussed what transpired between them, she didn't mention Lily's duplicity, and actually grew to respect the woman after her part in dismantling the traffickers' organization.

Mostly, they never put out the thought of resuming her and Hyde's trysts. Or starting again. It was unheard of.

This time Bella looks away first. Her chest is on fire.]

Attractive to?

[hydesout]

To? That doesn't particularly matter does it? It's only my opinion.

[What does it matter if he thinks she's attractive (in more than just a physical sense), of course whatever they had is over. It's just good to be friendly again. And as a friend, he thinks she's very impressive and desirable. And he can't seem to feel or hear anything but his heart beating.]

[alamob]

Yours.

[Her rash impulses dictate what she does next: stand, abruptly scraping the chair back an inch, and circle the table in two steps to stand by him with hawkish intent. Intent to... ?

To get the truth from him. Bella just wants-- or needs, if her burning insides give any indication-- Robert to give her truth.]

[hydesout]

Y-yes, mine.

[If she must know!! But he still stands by that it doesn't matter. Who else would he be referring to anyway!

Does she really have to stand so close, he won't be able to keep a grip on himself like this. Where's that medication...coat pocket. He fumbles for it.]

[alamob]

[She watches him panic without making a move to interfere. Bella's not sure where she's going with this, either. It feels foolish, but natural all the same. Her fingers wrap around the back of his chair but hardly brush him.]

What're you frightened of now? Think I'll ... snap you up?

[hydesout]

No, of course not, I - there's nothing I'm frightened of.

[But he's definitely not doing so well. This requires more than just a spray or two. He takes about five doses.]

And you, are you...angry?

[alamob]

[That's bizarre. Obviously it's a symptom of the pressure he's feeling. If she were kinder, she'd retreat. Bella won't do that yet.

She leans away, though, considering.]

Not a bit. Why all this? Why the schoolboy fluttering? And don't give me nonsense.

[hydesout]

I'm not sure how I'm meant to answer!

[This whole thing is hard to deal with in every way.]

You must know already what I think of you - how I feel about you.

[But they don't talk about that, so he doesn't want to bring it up. But she asked.]

[alamob]

[But Bella only looks taken aback, perplexed. Evidently she did NOT know what he think and feels about her. She never wanted the discomfort of wondering.]

Something's changed, then.

[hydesout]

Has it? I wouldn't say anything has changed only...increased?

[Did she really not know? He thought it was obvious, and most likely obvious that he wasn't getting over it any time soon either.]

[alamob]

[Most of his behavior can be written off as typical Robert skittishness, but maybe that's more an indicator of how he behaves around women he's got a thing for.

Her other hand flattens into the table as she goes on the offensive, trapping him into his chair. This is now an interrogation.]

No, it has. I'm not what you wanted, remember?

[hydesout]

[This is now frightening, being trapped.]

That isn't true, precisely...!

[He never said she wasn't what he wanted. He just said there was something else he wanted. There is a difference. A big one.]